Time to acept the good...

For Valentines day I was given a very thoughtful gift. A hour and a half massage. I had to wait a whole month to use my gift because the place was booked solid.However, the time finally came. It was a quiet little place behind a tattoo shop. It reminded me a lot of the houses and businesses in Boulder, CO. Rustic with a little bit of hippie mixed in. I know that's not real descriptive but its of little importance based on the purpose of this post. Anyway, I enjoyed the massage very much and found it to be quite relaxing. After, the gentlemen who gave me the massage sat with me in his office. He was making small talk about being healthy and eating right. I explained, how i was not eating wheat anymore to see if that was beneficial to my health. He then said something that I had an unexpected reaction too. He said, " you know for the most part you seem to be very healthy". My immediate internal response was "are you CRAZY? I'm a mess". I have issues with this and that and if you only knew about whatever. However, I smiled, said thank you and then tipped and left. When I was driving home I wondered about my reaction. Why did I instantly reject the observation that I was healthy? I mean, I am cutting bread out of my diet, the most amazing thing to eat! I suffer through sit ups and pull ups, in the name of fitness and I do try and get a full nights rest, every chance I get. So why would I so quickly reject "healthy" as something that describes me. Isn't that my intention? I realized that I have been defining myself by my Issues. I receive sympathy for my issues from others. Which can be comforting and nice. Its real and i do have to deal with it daily. But i don't have to be defined by my medical "issues". Then I thought, "if I'm healthy, now what"? If I have overall health, what do i focus on now? Obviously I continue to maintain and miniature my health. But maybe I now can focus on life, others, goals, school, etc. I guess Elizabeth M is healthy and that's enough to know for now.