oh its ok..wait not its not!

I dont have a problem with confronting an issue that needs to be addressed. However, I tend to only confront when I half too, rather then when I need to. I would rather just walk away, letting you stay right where you are in your unlovingness (if thats a word) and non growth.

After hearing a persons weak excuse on why they did not call, text, write, during this whole life changing event in my life, i did not respond with my usual "its ok, i understand." Today I told someone, its not ok and that you really should have walked through your own fear and made sure I was ok. Because thats what i deserved...because thats what you promised to me.

Now i'm sure it sounds like i had this very drawn out confrontation with loud words, full of anger and adrenaline but it was not. I don't think that person even knows what happened, in fact i know they don't. But i stood up for my self in these simple words: You really should have called...

My tone was not sarcastic or condescending, in fact, i think in a way, it was loving. I spoke the truth, I protected myself and reaffirmed my value in my own mind. Right when i said it, I knew what i had done and i became very proud of myself. I'm not sure exactly why at this exact time i had this brake through but I did...and for that i'm thankful because today i had the strength to protect Elizabeth M.